It is 1203am and I have decided to write. Saturday I spent the night coding. I was trying to get a FastAPI app up and running, all from my budget Android phone. The test cases were written to use Puppeteer. I ended up using Replit for that. Coding is more challenging when using a mobile phone. Not impossible but more challenging. I hardly blog about technology and coding anymore but the love is still there. I still have a dream of creating my own coding and youtube studio with a nice desk setup. That is nice but what should I make this blog post about? What do I want to write about? What should I write about? I love creating presentations. That is something I could do to revive my youtube channel. I love Maths too. I have this feeling that I could solve one of those longstanding Maths problems that seems impossible.
Sometimes, like right now, I feel like abandoning my blog post. It is going nowhere. Maybe I should get up and go wash the wares. I wish God could tell me what to write about. Ramadan has left us. What did I learn from this Ramadan? Did I come out of this Ramadan stronger? I learnt that I need to do better. I need to be better. There is always room for improvement. I am an imperfect person loved by a perfect God. This realization makes me stronger. From struggling to find direction and purpose for this blog post I have arrived at three powerful truths: I am not where I want to be → "I need to do better."; Growth never ends → "There is always room for improvement."; We are still valued despite our flaws → "I am an imperfect person loved by a perfect God." That last one is the anchor. Without it, "I need to be better" can turn into pressure. With it, it becomes strength instead of guilt.
From a faith perspective, "growth never ends" becomes "As long as we are alive, the door to grow closer to God is never closed." The door of Ramadan is closed until next year but the door of growth is always open. Even the word God could stand for God opens doors. We can use Ramadan as a stepping stone for growth for the rest of the year. Ramadan is not a destination but a turning point on this journey called life. What are some doors we could want God to open? I ask God to open the doors of consistency, discipline, clarity, knowledge, creativity, opportunity, patience, and courage among others so that what started during Ramadan can continue. I ask God to keep these doors open for us. I ask God to open these doors back when they become closed. I ask God to keep the door of mercy open. I ask God that when one door closes to open a better door for us. One door that God will keep open for us is the door to the room for improvement. And when all is said and done, we ask that our final door be the door of heaven.
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