Broken but awoken

This is another page from my ninth book called "Dear God". I was inspired to write this book after writing "I am voting for God" on my blog. It continues in that format. Short letters (or prayers) to God. It gives me an opportunity to write more and write to God at different moments in my life.
___________________

Dear God,

As fate would have it, I am up late tonight. Maybe it is the night of power and I chose the right night to wake late. Hopefully. I struggle to write more. I am overwhelmed by Your infinite power. You know what is good for me without me asking. You know me better than I know myself. You know what I am going to write next. You do not need me but I need You.

You are the most loving and most generous and most merciful. I ask for good health. I ask for Your mercy. I ask for peace. I ask for all that is good. There are things that I can change and there are things I cannot change. I ask for the best things to be written for my qadr when it is that time. I am humbled by Your power. I made a list of things I want included in my qadr and one of them is couscous (or brown rice), tomatoes and cucumber type lunches like I used to make. That is me also reminding myself to take care of myself. I know that You want the best for me.

I am broken but I am not bitter by this. This has been my path to walk. This has been my fate. I guess I could say that I am broken but now I am awoken. I am awoken by Your love that glues the broken pieces of me together. I am awoken by Your grace, finding strength in vulnerability and peace in surrender. I am awoken by Your closeness. I am awoken by Your truth that I should not have to impress anyone else but You. Night time is approaching early morning and I am still awake. I find solace in the conversation between my soul and Your infinite wisdom in what was written and unwritten by me.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Peaces of paper

This is another page from my ninth book called "Dear God". I was inspired to write this book after writing " I am voting for God " on my blog. It continues in that format. Short letters (or prayers) to God. It gives me an opportunity to write more and write to God at different moments in my life. ___________________ Dear God, It is cloudy, rainy and wet outside. The birds are chirping from tree to tree. They are looking for their daily meal I suppose, despite the conditions. I am resting in a corner writing to You. There is nothing special I want to write. It is Sunday. Life needs the rain to grow. I am thinking that growth sounds like a contraction of "God wrote". I am thinking that God wrote our life stories. Each story, a tree rooted in Your love with branches that reach for the sky. This is God's will for us. Make me grow into someone that is pleasing to You. A gentle soul that is full of love. Someone who is full of hope. Someone who is good. Som...
Read more

The pace of peace

This is another page from my ninth book called "Dear God". I was inspired to write this book after writing " I am voting for God " on my blog. It continues in that format. Short letters (or prayers) to God. It gives me an opportunity to write more and write to God at different moments in my life. ___________________ Dear God, I am up early again. It is 316am. I have 36% battery left on my phone. The place is beautifully quiet. Words do not come easily right now. I needed a prompt. I went to the internet and grabbed a random word from a random word generator. I got the word "pace". This word looks like peace if I add an e. Maybe e is for everything and peace is the natural pace of everything. The way it is supposed to be. These days life in general moves at a fast pace and we sometimes describe it as the rat race. This has me thinking. What is the pace of peace? I learnt that pace is the ablative singular of the Latin word "pax" which means ...
Read more

The missing peace

This is another page from my ninth book called "Dear God". I was inspired to write this book after writing " I am voting for God " on my blog. It continues in that format. Short letters (or prayers) to God. It gives me an opportunity to write more and write to God at different moments in my life. ___________________ Dear God, It is 212am. I drank a cup of water and I sit in the quiet of the night writing to You. I had a dream and part of that dream was me telling how I had found God and how that helped me. What does it mean to find You? I think it means You were missing, You were missing from my life even though You were always there all the steps of the way. And just like that it started raining at 223am for a brief moment. I can hear the raindrops on my galvanise roof. I was lost and I found You. It was not an overnight mission for me neither is it a task that is complete. It took several years and small and gradual steps to reach this point where I can say that ...
Read more

From sole to soul

This is another page from my ninth book called "Dear God". I was inspired to write this book after writing " I am voting for God " on my blog. It continues in that format. Short letters (or prayers) to God. It gives me an opportunity to write more and write to God at different moments in my life. ___________________ Dear God, I woke up to the sou-nd of rain. I am thinking about my soles and my soul and how they sou-nd the same and how they are related. Keep my soles and my soul connected and on the right path. Keep me grounded. Keep my steps in harmony with my higher purpose. Let my soles move forward on a path that aligns with my soul. My soles connect to the earth and my soul connects to You. I know that each step I take carries weight - physically, mentally, spiritually. Sometimes, I wonder if I am walking with who I truly am or if I am being swept by the noise of this world. Guide me, God, so that each footstep leaves a mark of purpose. My soul purpose is to lo...
Read more

Pause for a cause

This is another page from my ninth book called "Dear God". I was inspired to write this book after writing " I am voting for God " on my blog. It continues in that format. Short letters (or prayers) to God. It gives me an opportunity to write more and write to God at different moments in my life. ___________________ Dear God, I pray for the world. I pray for humanity. I pray for mankind. I pray together with anyone who is praying to You right now. I pray with all those seeking a miracle right now. I pray for all those with a cause. Because I know than You can help. Because Your power is bigger than the biggest problems. Because Your help is only a prayer away. Because You can put the right persons in the right places to make a difference. Every cause has an effect. Every action has a reaction. We seek Your reaction for our prayers. I pause and I look at the sky. I ask myself why, like I have done several times before. Why the bad? Why the sad? Can we not be glad al...
Read more