Skip to main content

The missing peace

This is another page from my ninth book called "Dear God". I was inspired to write this book after writing "I am voting for God" on my blog. It continues in that format. Short letters (or prayers) to God. It gives me an opportunity to write more and write to God at different moments in my life.
___________________

Dear God,

It is 212am. I drank a cup of water and I sit in the quiet of the night writing to You. I had a dream and part of that dream was me telling how I had found God and how that helped me. What does it mean to find You? I think it means You were missing, You were missing from my life even though You were always there all the steps of the way. And just like that it started raining at 223am for a brief moment. I can hear the raindrops on my galvanise roof.

I was lost and I found You. It was not an overnight mission for me neither is it a task that is complete. It took several years and small and gradual steps to reach this point where I can say that I found You. Where did I find You? You were everywhere but I had to open my eyes. I had to open my eyes and mind and heart to Your presence. Looking back on it, it is as if part of me was missing. An important part. Like a missing compass. How do I ensure that what is found is not lost again? I think continued prayers is the answer. Prayers as reminders that You are there and that You are listening.

I found this quote and it resonated with what needed to be said in this last paragraph. It goes, "the best way to find love is to find God". We are all really looking for love. And what better place to go to for this love than You. You are the source of all love. You are the source of all things. It makes sense to seek love and connection with something greater than ourselves firstly. You know us better than we know ourselves. It is 302am now and I can hear the rain again. Through God's love we can find the missing piece of ourselves. The missing peace for ourselves.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Running php and apache on termux

This was my experience getting php and apache to run on termux apt update && apt upgrade -y apt install php-apache I was following an old blog post that used php 7 and got these errors Can't locate API module structure `php7_module' in file /data/data/com.termux/files/usr/libexec/apache2/libphp.so: undefined symbol: php7_module Cannot load /data/data/com.termux/files/usr/libexec/apache2/libphp7.so Corrected in apache config file vim $PREFIX/etc/apache2/httpd.conf LoadModule php_module /data/data/com.termux/files/usr/libexec/apache2/libphp.so Apache is running a threaded MPM, but your PHP Module is not compiled to be threadsafe.  You need to recompile PHP. Comment out mpm_worker and use mpm_prefork #LoadModule mpm_worker_module libexec/apache2/mod_mpm_worker.so LoadModule mpm_prefork_module libexec/apache2/mod_mpm_prefork.so This still does not work as apache (httpd) was failing silently. According to Chatty LoadModule php_module ...libphp.so often fails in Termux becau...

Stuck running sftp server on termux alpine for multi-user setup

The below is my journey trying to get multi-user sftp working using alpine on termux pkg update && pkg upgrade pkg install proot-distro openssh proot-distro install alpine proot-distro login alpine apk update apk upgrade apk add openssh shadow sudo apk add vim vim /etc/ssh/sshd_config Port 8022 PermitRootLogin no PasswordAuthentication yes Subsystem sftp internal-sftp Match Group sftpusers     ChrootDirectory /sftp/%u     ForceCommand internal-sftp     X11Forwarding no     AllowTcpForwarding no addgroup sftpusers adduser user1 adduser user1 sftpusers mkdir -p /sftp/user1/upload chown root:root /sftp/user1 chmod 755 /sftp/user1 chown user1:sftpusers /sftp/user1/upload How I run my server each time pkill sshd rm -f /etc/ssh/ssh_host_* ssh-keygen -A /usr/sbin/sshd -D -d -d -d From another termux session sftp -P 8022 user1@127.0.0.1 Connection reset by 127.0.0.1 port 8022 Connection closed Some troubleshooting steps mkdir -p /run/sshd chmod 75...

Why is the Caribbean not a tech hub?

Why is the Caribbean not a tech hub? I saw this question online and it got me thinking. Who should be asking this question? Who should be answering this question? Do we have the data to answer this question? Besides data, what else do we need to answer this question? And when we have answers, who is going to do the work to change things? This is what my friend Chatty had to say: The question "Why is the Caribbean not a tech hub?" is really a question about history, capital, education, governance, culture, and coordination, not just technology. The Caribbean is often unfairly compared to places like Silicon Valley or Shenzhen without acknowledging that those regions benefited from massive investment, large markets, and long-term industrial planning, while Caribbean nations were shaped by colonial extraction, small fragmented markets, debt, and brain drain. We have some useful data, but not enough to fully understand the region’s digital potential, and data alone cannot answer ...